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I'm pretty sure that I've spent the majority of the past 3 years or so in my car. And it's funny the kind of thinking that can go on while you're driving. Obviously, I'm not driving now. Nonetheless, I almost always think that it's the significant days that provide the juices of creativity. Define significant? Yeah, I can't really, but you know what I mean. I'm starting to discover that my best batches of creativity or insight come on the most random days, the most random times --

the most significantly insignificant days.

It is no secret to anyone who even pretends to know me that I would just about pay any price for the Movie Theater experience. And yes, more than one time a day. Par Exemplar: yesterday. I saw two great movies, and it's funny that I didn't realize until this morning how seeing them and letting my guard down (in a way I haven't actually done in a good while) has affected my state of mind. I was in desperate need of a change of scenery. Sadly, I find myself needing that a lot recently. I hope that's okay.

I guess nobody really decides for me, though, right? So I say, it is okay. Thanks.

Nonetheless, my two great movie experiences gave me the smallest yet sweetest taste of validation that I think I may have had in a long while. Not in that silly fairytale sort of way (and certainly not to say that fairytales are at all an unacceptable form of hopefulness in their own right). More in a "hey, will you back the hell away from what feels like worthless, eternal agony for a second and notice that good plot lines always move somewhere" kind of way.
Whatever that means.

That all said, I think I might have figured something out. I know that's vague and whatnot, but let's face it. We all know that if I tried to articulate it every single one of you would get that look on your face... that "ok, what are you talking about" look. Never gets old. :)

Point of my story: See good movies.