yet this I call to mind...

Once upon a time, my days were not so intense.

Once upon a time, I didn't feel like I needed to take a lap around the perimeter of my house just to "lighten" my own mood.

Ree-diculous.

And frankly my dears, it's getting frickin' old.

Misunderstand me not, however. I am noticing the tiny pieces of something good that fall around me occasionally. And O, how grateful I am for them. Little shards of hope scattered about my feet, sticking like snowflakes to the ends of my hair or clumping up in the "waterproof" (a term I use quite loosely) mascara making its way to the ends of my eyelashes and even sliding down my face more times a day than I'd like...

*sigh* One day, I'll never have to do this again.

One day, I'll be whole. It won't be such a struggle. It won't be war anymore.

And I can finally take this armor off.

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Burned another 300 calories tonight on that elliptical-machine-from-hell. I'm determined to be a champion over that thing. Even if it costs me all my limbs... and at this point, that's pretty much what it sounds like it will cost...

I need to be more consistent with that. Ahh, the day I burn 500 calories in one trip... I press on!

Or I pass out.

*lol* That's Biblical, right?

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And now, for the newest addition to my sad attempt to be consistent:
The Top 10 Songs I'm Presently Obsessed With:

1. "Element" by Matthew Mayfield (you love this song, whoever you are, I promise)

2. "Open Road" also by Matthew Mayfield

3. "Falling" by The Civil Wars (located at www.myspace.com/thecivilwars) all their stuff is amazing...

4. "Beloved One" by Ben Harper & The Innocent Criminals

5. "Love, Reign O'er Me" by Pearl Jam (located on the Reign Over Me soundtrack)

6. "The Mess I Made" by Parachute (you also love this song)

7. "The Ballad of Love and Hate" by The Avett Brothers

8. "Poison & Wine" by The Civil Wars

9. "I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You" by Colin Hay

10. *drumroll* "How He Loves" by John Mark McMillan (for once, I actually think David Crowder should have left this one alone...)

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And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me...